For the last Seven YEars I have physically been away from a tormenter. The one who has led to my PTSD. She was still haunting my dreams—well, nightmares if I’m being honest.
However, since I’ve started my new FULL-TIME job, AND (more importantly) been talking to my therapist about it and using tools they have equipped me with, my dreams (now down to once or twice a month) and are no longer nightmares.
The last one had me confronting her ( my tormenter) with my family in tow. I’m still unsure if I should confront her—if I ever see her. There’s a part of me that wants to because maybe she will change. Say her sorry, and maybe even say her apologies to the other people she has hurt.
The part that doesn’t want to, is the part where me (and honestly my therapist) believe with take joy or treasure in the fact that she got to me. Or blame me for “feeling that way.” I’m not sure.
But perhaps, since wisdom comes with our experiences, I can be able to see what it would be.
In the mean time, I am loving my new job. It’s work from home and hopefully soon I will be able to utilize some of the perks.